Ah, as I was afraid, things change. I'm officially quitting A Levels later today. Today's my last day of going to the same class as William. Sad, I know.
Why?
Ouch. Bad results is one reason which snowballed into the fact that I can't cope by doing both AS and A2 at once, and Ms Hew wants me to defer instead. But look at it this way, (i beg of you), I don't want to do this in the first place. Now I'm back on track, so please, don't tell me I'm an idiot for doing this. I have no choice.
What's my plans ahead, you say?
I'm planning to find a job now, hopefully something similar to what I plan to do in the future. Possibly in a advertising firm, *cross fingers*. At worst, I will have to do teaching in a kindergarten where i know most of you will think that it's the most suitable job EVER for me.
Why a job?
I'm waiting for The One Academy's new intake, which I am meaning to check the next time I go to Sunway. Besides, working seems fun and my parents want me to get some work experience. Oh and I desperately need a car.
I feel:
Sad, of course. And kinda degraded. Well, I've always thought very little of those giving up halfway. Now myself is doing the same. How shameful. I also feel bad for not doing well in it, feel like I'm incompetent and stupid for not being able to finish this.
But I'm trying to look at this with a pair of sunglasses, I think I might enjoy this after all. I don't wanna do law anyway. I wanna do arts (tho some might think that this is a foolish and naive choice). I wanna go to an arts school. I want to learn more about it. I don't want to waste more time writing Law/Socio/Econs essays (not that I do much) anymore.
Jun told me about the foundation and got me really excited about it. Tho it sounds hectic, but it's gonna be a good sort of stress, the right kind. So this really drives me to continue down this path.
To William:
I don't know what to say, really. I'm so darn sorry that I didn't do well. I know you want me to be in class with you. So do I. But yea, I'm sorry that I screwed up. I know this really messed up what you want.
*sigh
Well I'm gonna take this opportunity to say:
CONGRATULATIONS ON YOUR STRAIGHT A'S!
I'M SO FRIGGIN PROUD OF YOU! TOLD YOU THAT YOU CAN DO IT! I TOTALLY SAW IT COMING!
:D! Keep up the good work. Pay attention to the right things in class, now that I'm not there. :)I'M SO FRIGGIN PROUD OF YOU! TOLD YOU THAT YOU CAN DO IT! I TOTALLY SAW IT COMING!
Love you. <3
Labels: College life, Rant, William